..Studying in a very religious school when I was in high school, praying the rosary everyday and reading the bible every night has become part of my daily routine. Even before I was attending school, I already learned about God. My family and school taught me everything I need to know about our Heavenly Father. And since then, I have become God's ultimate avid fan!
..All that was in my mind is that praying the rosary everyday and reading the bible every night would help me go to heaven.
..All I was dreaming for is heaven..
..Well, I know it's quite normal! I mean, everybody wants to go to heaven!
..I have tried to be a good daughter, good friend and a good sister..But everytime I tried to be such, I always stumble.. Until one day I asked God, "Why can't I be good enough?"
..I always thought that I can never be the best. I have a lot of fears. And as I grew up, my fears grew along with me.. Even though I've been consistent in the honor list when I was in high school, got many achievements and received many awards during graduation, I have never felt that I am an achiever! I never appreciated myself.. It's just that, it came to the point that I was really really hard to please!
..The only people I was relying on when I was in high school were my friends. They've always been there at my side through my ups and downs. They never fail to make me feel that I belong. The only thing that makes me happy in school were my friends. I never wanted to be separated from them.
The time comes when I have to open a new chapter of my life - the college life! Everybody was so excited going to college except me!
I felt I was the most lonely person in the world with no one to talk to and be with. I missed my old friends.
..UNTIL ONE DAY..
A miracle happened!
..All that was in my mind is that praying the rosary everyday and reading the bible every night would help me go to heaven.
..All I was dreaming for is heaven..
..Well, I know it's quite normal! I mean, everybody wants to go to heaven!
..I have tried to be a good daughter, good friend and a good sister..But everytime I tried to be such, I always stumble.. Until one day I asked God, "Why can't I be good enough?"
..I always thought that I can never be the best. I have a lot of fears. And as I grew up, my fears grew along with me.. Even though I've been consistent in the honor list when I was in high school, got many achievements and received many awards during graduation, I have never felt that I am an achiever! I never appreciated myself.. It's just that, it came to the point that I was really really hard to please!
..The only people I was relying on when I was in high school were my friends. They've always been there at my side through my ups and downs. They never fail to make me feel that I belong. The only thing that makes me happy in school were my friends. I never wanted to be separated from them.
The time comes when I have to open a new chapter of my life - the college life! Everybody was so excited going to college except me!
I felt I was the most lonely person in the world with no one to talk to and be with. I missed my old friends.
..UNTIL ONE DAY..
A miracle happened!
..It was another lonely day for me. I was alone by myself and I was about to go home. But just when I am about to step my foot out from the gym, someone called my name. It was Joash! He was also a political science major. He called me and invited me to join their "Bible Study".. "where?", I asked. He said that at the wrockledge area. And with a big smile, I followed him and there I met Ate Eloisa-the one who facilitates the activity. ..They are the people who change my life! I join the Inter-Varsity Christian Fellowship ( IVCF )..
At home I could not help but cry.. I thank God for evrything!
..IT WAS ONLY THEN THAT I REALIZED THAT I FOUND WHAT MY HEART WAS SEEKING FOR!
..I woke up the following day wearing a big smile on my face! Another new day for me. But this time, I say BYE BYE TO LONELINESS!
..You might ask, "what was it that I was seeking for?"
WELL, I was seeking for answers to my endless questions!
..as I grow up, I have become a witness of mad people slowly destroying the face of the earth, little by little drowning themselves to SIN!
..But I just cannot tell them what to do because I myself, am a great sinner! Well, that's the reality. NOBODY can ever escape from sin. As long as we live as human beings, we always have the capacity to sin, for we enherit them from our ancestors - Adam and Eve!
..more questions coming up to my mind everyday, like, who would take care of the poor? of our less fortunate brothers and sisters? and ETC.,,,,
..many questions.. VERY MANY!
..But when I met Joash, Ate Eloisa, Ate Lala and all the members of IVCF, I have come to know God with deep understanding and grace. They serve as God's instrument for me to become closer to HIM.
..As I journey with our beloved CREATOR, I realize that "I don't need to have answers to all my questions.. And that's the reason why God remains MYSTERIOUS and AWESOME.."
At home I could not help but cry.. I thank God for evrything!
..IT WAS ONLY THEN THAT I REALIZED THAT I FOUND WHAT MY HEART WAS SEEKING FOR!
..I woke up the following day wearing a big smile on my face! Another new day for me. But this time, I say BYE BYE TO LONELINESS!
..You might ask, "what was it that I was seeking for?"
WELL, I was seeking for answers to my endless questions!
..as I grow up, I have become a witness of mad people slowly destroying the face of the earth, little by little drowning themselves to SIN!
..But I just cannot tell them what to do because I myself, am a great sinner! Well, that's the reality. NOBODY can ever escape from sin. As long as we live as human beings, we always have the capacity to sin, for we enherit them from our ancestors - Adam and Eve!
..more questions coming up to my mind everyday, like, who would take care of the poor? of our less fortunate brothers and sisters? and ETC.,,,,
..many questions.. VERY MANY!
..But when I met Joash, Ate Eloisa, Ate Lala and all the members of IVCF, I have come to know God with deep understanding and grace. They serve as God's instrument for me to become closer to HIM.
..As I journey with our beloved CREATOR, I realize that "I don't need to have answers to all my questions.. And that's the reason why God remains MYSTERIOUS and AWESOME.."
